You want to redeem the years you lost out of your life. Stop following your emotions. Go at it head first. And God said, I will give you back the time you lost. I will restore from the mistakes you made. I will do a new thing in you and the former things will pass away.
When you stop sniffling and whimpering and crying and having tantrums and schizophrenia and be sober and get a grip on yourself, God said, I’ll open up the windows of heaven, and I’ll pour you out–listen, you won’t even have room enough to receive it.